Thursday, August 21, 2008 @ 2:46:00 PM
2 weeks since my last post... finally here to update but now here, onli update on de sad things...
yea tis week suxs
didn't talk a lot tis week in school..
everything happened in tis week
friendship went wrong, common test and de results..
but thats is onli for me, my thoughts
feeling more and more lonely everyday
and till today, i cried in school in silence and i guess nobody noes it
u all may think dat i emo but dat is nortt always true
i dunno why you get de idea dat i came to school veri bu shuang
but de fact is i didn't.
you played and chat with her everyday everytime
leaving me sitting in front, looking in de space
deres nth i can do to stop euu
cox i cannot control ur actions and mouth
i heard two of ur de laughters i get angry.
but i still sat in silence.
when the two of you talk to me
yes i response but sometimes with onli a word
when ur played with me,
sometimes i did not laugh cox i juz can't laugh out loud.
i am shutting myself up.
i hate to be lyk dat and i hate tis things to happen
i closed one eye to it and did not care
but today i can't stand it anymore
i did not talk to you all
but still,
you two seems nortt to care
continued with ur playing and laughters
de more i heard dat euu r playing and ur laughters,
de more i feel lyk crying
i feel so lefted out,
going to be a loner
i hate to be lonely.
i experienced it b4 and i hate dat
realli it SUXS..
but aft school euu talk to me
and i know de reason
maybe i hav misunderstood you
but i juz can't help it
I'M SORRY TOO
-----------------------------------------------------
today, i cried mostly is becox of dat but another reason is dat my history results simply suxs lyk shit. i study hard for it. i memorised all de chapters but seems dat it doesn't work at all. i gortt trick by de compare and contrast question i thought the question say to compare de content but it is nortt. i passed but with low marks. i regret it... i wann to do better... de stress dat my parents gave me but i am willing to study hard so dat i will not see de disappointment in their face now i have a bad omen dat my maths results will be bad too... i'm hopeless...
